It all blurs together really.
Time.
Especially this year in the midst of the COVID pandemic.
And this year I am not ready for change.
I'm scared actually.
That if Fall comes, other things will change.
And to be honest, I'm taking reality in doses right now.
It has been laid on my heart that the years blissful ignorance or over and my eyes have been opened to the evils of the world.
I'm not talking conspiracies. In fact, I have stayed away from the news.
I'm talking about the true, heart wrenching realization that there is more going on in the world than we have going on inside these 4 walls.
And something must be done.
So it is only a matter of time before we have to go from living our typical American lives to putting ourselves in uncomfortable places and doing the work we are called to do.
Right now is a time of growth though. So we have all resolved to spend this next season of life educating ourselves. All of us. On God. On His will for our lives. On the things that we were just allowing to happen around us without so much as a tiny bit of thought.
As we move forward with that, we still strive to keep a love of learning alive in Big S. So although we are unschooling still-in that she has some control over her education-she has picked some things she wants to formally learn (like writing and logic) and we will be going forward with that.
I have to say that I am quite excited about her new books because they will require her to stretch her mind beyond what she knows and beyond what I could teach her myself. Her math is a Christian Worldview curriculum that explains God's consistencies in math. It starts with elementary concepts and moves all the way through Algebra explaining how you can literally see God work through all of it! Writing was good. Nothing spectacular but will give her a good base for public speaking next year which she wants to do to help with acting. And her logic book will be something we do together as a family. It teaches how to identify false logic such as red herrings and propaganda. I think now more than ever it is important for her to learn that. Seeing all the chaos in the country when all of this happened, I feel like learning to identify false logic will assist her in living without fear and not allowing Satan to get a stronghold on her as she grows older.
She will still have Bible, History, reading, and piano (all her choice as well)-but those are nothing new. Her and I are working through the Little House series and she has recently become engrossed in "Bud, Not Buddy."
Watching her learn piano over the last year had been heartwarming. Especially when I found out that she would be assisting in church worship soon. I just pray that these are the things that will stay with her forever. That she will realize the significance behind it.
I will also be doing some of my own learning. I have courses on government, psychology, vegetable gardening, and church history.
Jessie will be focusing on getting an IT Cert. For work and putting a lot of energy in ministry as he enters his first year as youth pastor.
We have a lot to look forward to in the months to come as we learn how to live this life during war-times.
I can't sit idol. God did not call me to be idol and all the cleaning I have done in the last 9 months has done the kingdom no good.
So here goes nothing....
